phasing out

isn't it curious.. what remains of all the time and life that you go through.
i am happy to get a very saturated and beautiful life story out of it.
and i won't pretend that the new year's doesn't make me look back thinking about what my annual balance looks like. i'm telling you, this has been a crazy year. but i'm leaving the details to mature and mellow and, if life's good to us and in some decennaries we'll still be hearing from each other every now and then, i'll have some helluva good stories for you.
for now life is too young and fast moving for contemplation. sounds like a new year's resolution.
so here's a short sum up / quotes of how the 2009 has gone into this blog's history.
yep.. just for the hell of it!

jan: a portion of existential joy. and a portion of deep rooted misery.

      internal violence can be healing.

feb: he, who chooses to run a risk, should also take the consequences. shouldn't we forget about the consequences        to dare to risk?

      forget everything you knew about me. it doesn't really matter. i have a red guitar. on loan, just like my life is.

mar: turn me off. wear me out. do not have pity on me. be with me

       it might be the good old question of love. or friendship. residing in the fact to really know someone/ something but to still love it. or, even better, to still be in love with it.

       the world doesn't owe me anything.

apr: this is my life story. but we ain't done yet.

      and hey.. thanks for being with me. in a way. digitally yours, liig.

      so. what i need now is a cold spring. and, how curious.. that's all there is.

may: liig. is learning to fail. and to be kicked out. / in real life praxis

       a kind of powerpuff girl. i am i am. or i'm not. but i have to be, i have to be

jun: (silence and some good latvian stuff for a change)

jul: everything is part of the plan, so if i don't learn by myself i'll be taught another lesson. fair enough.

     the most topical is learning patience. and letting go. in different ways and kinds.

     it is all our choices that form our lives, and i've made a few. no regrets.

aug: a lot of brain gymnastics. takes a lot of practice.

       welcome to fight club. winning the battle, loosing a war is not my kind of a fight.

       there's time for great expectations. and the other time. all in good time

sep: bring it on, life.

       life is fair. forget everything. everything there was. all that you think is there. forget what you wanted.

       forget who you wanted to be. forget all the others. forget what you promised. forget where you run into.

       by accident, on purpose, by chance. now... what is left? what do you really want?

oct: long-live-the-hippies: "don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you got till it's gone"

      the fact, that we want ourselves to be sold is no surprise. that we need that appreciation. that we need to have what is appreciated by others and to be with those appreciated by others. maybe they won't ever understand. fact is, it does not make you any less worthy. and it never will

nov: we live and we learn.
       and it's all good. all that's been, all that is, all that's yet to come. and you love it. those sweet glimpses of true freedom. it's all what you make of it.

      all in good time: with these things there's no telling/ we just have to wait and see/ but i'd rather be working for a paycheck/ than waiting to win a lottery.

dec: be a true buddhist and never get attached to anything and anyone
       if you see i've once again posted something after 2 am.. whatever, there won't be much sense anyway..

see (:

have a fabulous time! i'll do so. this year i'm really up for more cheerful posts ;)
& thanks for keeping up with me!

p.s. to those who can get smth out of german: i've been waiting for this since 1999... :p