sheer simplicity

the fact that i have or rather take time to visit this place and play around is a good sign.
it seems that a summer experience has flown into my memo folder. somewhat unrealistic and sealed in an envelope. it's for a reason that here we call everyplace off the campground "the real world". i have now spent two months here, in an american middle of nowhere. most of the time i have shared this place with 60 teenager girls and around 20 other staff. i know this doesn't sound like me, that's exactly why i am here.

i never had the intention to come to the states. except for seeing new york and getting a few real life impressions to adjust my chain of prejudice built on what i've been thinking about the u-s-a. i never planned on working at a 7 week summer camp either. but some things just happen. good things happen. and the moments when you just go with it feel hilarious.

i haven't figured myself out. i simply know a lot more about myself than before. stop trying so hard and it will happen.. i could swear there are people who have said this to me or at least been wanting to do so. you are finally heard and understood.

and i... i am happy to get back to real life. i've been missing it. in three more days i will close this folder and move on. move forwards. first to new york. then to mexico. and then home. the sort of home that draws a small dreamy smile on your face when you say it aloud. i know i won't stay there for too long, but i will enjoy it big time. bit by bit.