don't beat life

fairytales. thing is, we actually believe in them.
that's what we're taught, told and shown, and eventually.. believe in. against all odds and rational thinking, and "knowing better" that it's all way too cheesy to be anything close to the real. you'd still want to stick to the story or screen and see how it unfolds and brings on the happy end, however sarcastic you may get about it.
i have always been curious about the "luckily ever after" part. the part where cinderella has 4 spoiled kids and one who's very sick, where prince has become king and is messing with politics, oil and war, and the crystal shoe is gathering layers of dust in the cellar. i do not program bad luck and failure, but well.. life happens.
this whole living thing is a process, there are no endings, not until you're at the very end. happy things happen just as sad ones do, i'm to blame, he's to blame and then no one really is.
it just happens.

see, sometimes i really wish i had a piano* at home. real bad.
in general, i wish i hadn't dropped it years ago and knew to play well.
if i had a piano at home, i'd probably play more often and.. be good at it.
if i had a piano at home and never had enough time to practice.. i'd be miserable and angry at myself.
so, what to do? get a piano or enjoy being relatively free from the will to play it?
you choose. you always get to choose. you make mistakes, call them experience and rush into joy or misery. or both. until the next wave and big choice comes along, pushing the preceding one to background.
what's the lesson? i guess it's high time to learn surfing.

you don't know anything until you know it. so enjoy your follies and be prepared. for all that you'll never be prepared for. and, yea... do believe in fairytales.

*piano is used here as a realistic allegory for pretty much everything. MacBook-Air-s, babies, g/b-friends, job, academic degrees, cute hobbies, having a clean conscience, good health, security, freedom, passion, memorable moments, childhood souvenirs or courage.
everything. you won't beat life.